記得，重視，需要

就這麽一天，情緒非常低落。也不知道為甚麽，或許太累了吧，開始胡思亂想了。也有可能是很久之前開始累積的負面情緒，被這天的小小導火線引爆了吧！所以就寫了這篇本是詩或歌的短短散文：

他們是XX社的吧？課余時間總是在一起呢！後面那班人是學生會的吧？做任何事總是在一起，很想一個家庭呢！樓上太吵了，在搞生日來派對給驚喜嗎？有朋友肯花時間為你慶祝生日，真好啊！很熱鬧呢！但看看俯瞰圖吧，這些圈圈外總有黑點在徘徊。你以為他們喜歡獨行嗎？非也。他們也在努力這要成為這些團體的一分子。

偏偏，他們對自己的信心不足。有話不敢說，有事不敢做，只有把所有的情緒往裏吞。他們的想法誰知啊？

偏偏，他們不懂得如何待人處事。遇到一些對其他人來說正常普通的事，他們卻不懂得如何面對、如何做出反應。別人或許會對此感到不屑吧？

偏偏，他們沒有任何有用的才華。除了某些方面如運動較人好些，與人交際方面的才華一點都沒有。不能唱、不能彈；跳舞畫畫半桶水；手腳笨拙、腦袋不靈活。想幫助別人，卻因沒有任何能力或相關的才華而心有余而力不足。被人冠上“聰明”的美譽，也只不過成績比人好些，但成績不是生存的技巧，不是生命的全部。

偏偏，有時候他們不知道是腦袋太好使還是太亂來,總是過度敏感。小小的事情都讓他們胡思亂想、疑神疑鬼。

或許，他們太在意別人對他們的看法。他們想知道他們在所謂的“朋友”的心目中到底是甚麼、占有多大份量。他們想知道在遙遠的未來，“朋友”會否還記得曾經有這麽一個人走進他們的生命，能讓他說：“他是我朋友”，而不只是一逝即忘的過客。

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被人記得

被人重視

被人需要

First Xmas 2011 in Singapore and First Countdown Party 2012 @Sentosa USS

Date: 01.01.12
Time: 0104

I am tired. Just came back from USS. So... I will just briefly go through the 2 major events that happened in December 2011.

Xmas
Back in Singapore from Malaysia on 25.12.11 morning and later met Boon Yi, Boon Xin and Ras at Raffles Place. The weather was damn windy damn nice especially at the river side. So we lepak there for a while before heading for dinner.

Had sleep over at Boon Yi's old house. The house was damn big (6 storeys?). Watched some random tv programme for a few hours and Boon Yi was chatting with her friend Josiah. Then Ras left and Ye Oon came. Continued watching some random tv programme and Boon Yi continued chatting with her friend downstairs. Then finally she came back and we played mahjong. Everybody was teaching Ye Oon who didn't know how to play mahjong. He was learning fast haha. About 2am, Boon Yi was going to crash but we forced her to wake up. Wasn't expecting to sleep anyway. Played Dai Dee and then watched a movie 《不能说的秘密》till 4am. Ye Oon and Boon Yi were playing this "I have never..." game and trying to get me involved. Well let two of them talk man I was trying to break my record: stay awake past 6am. Finally couldn't tahan and crashed at 7am. Only slept for half an hour.

Left about 1030am the next day to join the class to make present for Zi Jian.

New Year Eve
Teun Yee had free tickets for boogie countdown at USS Sentosa. The last awesome class outing for year 2011. Played almost all the fun rides like the Galactica Battleship (something like that), The Revenge of Mummy (if I am not mistaken) and Transformer. Also watched the Shrek 4D, Water World (not sure if the show was called this - basically about some people fighting, er near water... aiya just remember that the special effects damn nice the people navigating the motorboat damn cool did some underwater flip) and Monsters Rock (the dances and songs were very nice and the lightings all that were nice too but I had enough of it that day too much explosions). Went for another round of Cyclone before Joie and I left. So much more fun than the time when I came here with the ASG team in July. 6H AWESOME!

Far Far Away ..

Gotta left before countdown so as to get back to boarding in time. Lucky the circle line MRT was empty. Nice!

New year new wishes! Hope my wishes come true and all the best in everything :D