Second stage of challenge - GPP

I am skipping the first stage - PI, since it wasn't really difficult. In fact, it was nothing compared to what I am going through now.

This question kept popping out in my mind: Why is our group so awesome, but our GPP so screwed?" Perhaps, it has nothing to do with the people in the group...

At the very beginning of GPP, all of us had come to a consensus that we are embarking on a project related to environmental conflict. Be it related to conservation of a natural habitat, conservation of biodiversity, etc... This was not easy at all. We had been, in fact, are still changing our topic (this is the last week before the deadline for GPP), from environment to foreign worker back to environment again. Just within the topic of environmental conflict itself, we had spent hours and hours researching on different case studies (TR1 AND TR2): Allagash Waterway, Chek Jawa, Sembawang Beach, Pulau Ubin, etc. We even tried to move on to animals: Hornbill, Thrasher, etc. But none of these was approved by Mr Koh.

Now, our group is steeped in despair, with no direction, no motivation, nothing...

Our teacher met us today, wanting to find out what has gone wrong for our group. He was being frank with us, telling us that: he thinks that we are trying to 'fish' ideas info CS etc out of him; he was also frustrated because our group seems to be not interested, we cannot answer the questions thrown by him, our GPP very vague, we are not clear of what we are doing (though he said he wants to have a consult with us which he can be engaged in it); and the deadline is around the corner while our group still has nothing -> zero...

Perhaps we are really very not engaging during the consultation, always have a blank face, that's why he thought we didn't do our research well and are trying to 'coax' the ideas out of him. I have no idea whether this is true, but at least I know that that's not what I want. Even though he did give us some ideas (CSs), but I always told my group that as long as there is other things that we can do, I'd rather not do what is given by him. Perhaps this is just a matter of pride, I don't want him to think that our group is pathetic, our group is useless, nor do I want his sympathy.

True, our group has been insisting on this topic "Environment", and when we really can't do anything about it, I know that we should not be so stubborn, we should just choose another topic and move on. What he said today was really demoralising. He gave us this idea on "bullies", not forgetting to add: "...this is environment also, school environment..." I really couldn't stand the sarcasm...

Everyone of us in the group is really dying now.. ARGGH! What should we do?! Someone gotta save us... Please...

Sigh... Tomorrow is GP CT and I am still blogging... Pathetic...

Argh~ Good luck for tomorrow GP..　がんばって！

Chickens..............

I wonder they are real *** or just pretending to be like that. In Sec 3/4, I always got teased by my classmates as someone from kampung. Yea, I know Malaysia, as compared to Singapore, is not as advanced and high standard of living. But to see those as characteristics of kampung, it is just rather ridiculous..

The gang in my secondary classes (LKY, joke machine, the beast, Ivan, trying-to-thinking, yuck, etc) likes to call me "kampung kia" whenever they got the chance. Sigh... I had tried to explain to them that I am not but it was to no avail :( Well, I guess they aren't really that dumb. They just think that it is funny when they make fun of me. (yea I heard that I am damn fun to be bullied -.-)

These people seem to like chicken a lot too -.- because they just can't stop asking me to "go feed my chicken"..............

Or "how's your chicken..." "chicken die already..." etc etc -.-

okay fine...

At first I thought this is just something that my classmates do to make fun of me... But today, I realised that there do exist some Singaporeans who think that Malaysia is like kampung except KL.... I couldn't help giving this face =.= plus countless lines ||||||...

I was foaming badly really... Wondering should I laugh or go emo at one corner...

It was a windy Sunday morning. I couldn't believe that I had to wake up so early on Sunday morning for school work!!! (just to digress, I guess I have "Sunday" sinus :P) Yea you know what, that's all GPP's fault!!

Anyway, Puppy researched on some endangered bird species on Pulau Ubin for our TR2 and he managed to find one: the Red Jungle Fowl. To make it simple, chicken. wild CHICKEN. That was how we started on the topic of CHICKEN...

When I told them how my ex-classmates keep calling me "kampung kia", Warnt and Stella's replies made me foam, literally: "Are you not?"... What was more "deadly" was their "innocent" tone... Argh kill me pls... LOL

Though it's hard to admit, this is something funny (or should I say, dumb) thing that happens in my school life. Personal attack seems to be the most part of the idea behind it (LOL), but it's worth to be recorded down under the よるのたいよう.. wakawaka XD

十八歳の誕生日

哈哈進入正題前先讓我秀一段日文吧！XD

昨日、私の十八歳の誕生日。僕は本当にうれしかったです！ありがとう、みんな。

終於，十八嵗的生日到了！

再過兩年，我將打出人生的第二張牌。時間真的過得好快！在我還沒了解生存的真正意義之前，十八年，就這樣在我眼前一晃而過。說真的，現在我似乎還不怎麽能夠接受十八年就這樣過去了。

儘管我祈求著時間能慢下步伐，逗留於青春，但時間是條單程的直綫，而非一個周圓，失去的光陰，只能以回憶的方式留念。

從馬來新，朋友多了，知識多了，學會的東西也多了，這聼起來總覺得得到了很多，但得到的越多，就越發現失去的似乎更多。也因此在成長的歲月中，總有很多事情不想被遺忘。對在海外留學的我來説，友情在遺忘榜上更是排在最後一位。沒辦法啊。。。這裡的朋友總是在我身邊支持我、開導我，在我感到失落的時候讓我重拾愉快的心情，我甚至能和他們打成一片（在以前，這可是奢望啊！）。新加坡的朋友，只能用一個字形容：“O-wesome!” 所以，我要想辦法把他們記下來，以免在畢業以後，這些美好的回憶像破桶裏的水一樣，漸漸從我腦海裏流失。

十八嵗了，也就是說，這是參加 Age Group 球賽的最後一年。自從來到新加坡以後，對於羽球的熱忱漸漸冷卻，但看到學弟爲了打球（他的目標）而努力，那把火總是有重燃的衝動，只是……有引擎沒有燃料，哪兒來的推動力呢？更何況，現在未免也太遲了。今年以後，我就正式超齡了，即使有那零星的火花，也似乎沒多大作用。

啊！十八嵗的生日，看起來是那麽的特別、充滿對未來的期望的，但同時卻也參雑著我對過去的不舍、與對未來的迷茫。十八嵗的生日，真是令人百感交集。。。

十八嵗的生日，代表著校園生活即將落幕，儘管校園生活是我的全部，但就如我所說的，時間不會迂回輪轉，只會盲目地往前衝。凡事都有結束的一刻，沒有任何事是永恒的，所以……好好地珍惜剩下一年的校園時光吧！

 

ps: I expected my 18th birthday to be a special. Instead, it turned out to be rather horrible TT^TT FML

yea I know that I know nothing else...

This was really pissing me off! So can't play piano is my fault?! Noob in bridge is my fault?! Being good JUST in badminton is also my fault?!

"Why you can't play piano?..."

"...because this is not in the court, not badminton..."

"...why xxx piano so pro and you can't play..."

...

...

I finally couldn't stand it and fought back, "yea that's why my badminton can own everyone here!"

Why not? When he is learning piano from young, what I did was ONLY badminton, nothing else. Not like the privileged kids, being able to revolve around music and stuff, badminton was the only thing that I thought would follow me for life. Spending so much time on badminton, can't even own the people here would be a real disgrace.

Yea I know, other than badminton, I know nothing else. Can't play music, can't entertain people, ... I am just a useless person without badminton. That's why I have been trying hard to learn other things (of course I do like them).

I do realise this and I realised this a bit quite late (from my POV, though a lot of people might not agree with me). But there is nothing much I can do. Time can't be reversed and that's what make it precious to us.

A lot of people think that I have everything, being unable to do one or two things won't kill me. Being good in studies and all, a bright future is already paved for me.

Honestly, good in studies? I doubt it. Perhaps I am just a bit better than some of them, but it is nothing to be happy about.

And what's with the have-everything nonsense? When what I know is only..... Yea you know what it is...

Now think of it, what does good in studies help in my relationship with people? what does badminton help in my relationship with people? Yea none...

So I only can play badminton, so what?! I am useless, so what?!

與愛鸚小學時的回憶

最近facebook上開始流行這個：

Like my status and I'll tell you:
1. How we met:
2. My first impression of you:
3. What I like about you:
4. Favorite memory with you:
5. But if you like this you must put it as your status so I can like it.

閑著沒事做，就在愛鸚的“狀態”上點擊了“like”。與此同時，我也遵守了遊戲的規矩，把它也放上了我的“狀態”。哈哈後果“不堪設想”！很多人都“like”我的“狀態”（史上第一次-.-），結果要麽回些“稀不啦嘰”（不怎麽熟的人也“like”，要我回啥呀？！），要麽手指都在鍵盤上”舞“累了。

才過五分鐘，愛鸚就在我的“墻”上回覆了我（效率真高！）。This brought back memories! :D

“4. Favorite memory with you: h'ng! need me to repeat? water+saliva to my hair and face!!!。。。”

哈哈接下來就是我倆N篇的評論，談論著我們小學時的那可愛兼可笑的一幕。。。。。

口渴了，喝喝水吧！咦？誰（好像是賴俊傑）在說笑話？笑話耶！不能不聼啊！

。。。

。。。（忘記内容了，畢竟是N年前的事。）

哈哈哈！太好笑了！不准笑！不准笑！你在喝水啊！別笑！啊！忍不住了！

噗——哈哈哈哈哈！

回過神來，才發現坐在我旁邊的愛鸚從頭到腳都濕透了。〇Q〇 還用著 “-.-” 這種眼神看著我。。。不好意思=.="

畢竟對方是女生，道歉是沒用的。她一把搶過我的水瓶，當我的頭是花一樣，把剩餘的水澆到我頭上來。-.-

繼續看我們一部分的評論：

“‎4. HAHAHA I ALSO REMEMBER THIS HAHAHA I WAS SO SORRY BEC SOMEONE WAS TELLING A JOKE COULDN'T HELP TO LAUGH MA.. YOU TOOK YOUR REVENGE AFTER THAT ALSO HAHAHA” chengyuen

“‎4. Lai Joon Keat laa... u laa... stop drinking water 1st la... mine just water. urs have saliva leyy!” irene

“4. hahahaha bec the joke was really really funny no time swallow the water then PUUU- all came out HAHA even until today i still can't help laughing lol” chengyuen

“what joke lai de... u laugh bcoz of me oni rite? u dun even rmbr the joke! spoiled my image without 意义” irene

“oh btw you put this under "FAVOURITE memory" leh HAHA” chengyuen

“it's favourite memory btwn u and me oni maa... nothing else... haha” irene

這個回憶雖然簡單，但很有價值啊！